Love can be so painful...esp when the truth is out
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Yea, I guess this is it.
He has made his point clear enough.
One of our mutual frens teased us about being together yesterday during a gathering. And I got this crazy idea that maybe then as a good time to kinda confess my feelings to him. And mebbe because I miss him too much too co si haven't seen him for a while.
So yea, I kinda blurted it out.
At first, he looked shocked. He blinked his eyes. I waited for his response. He gave me none.
He just walked away.
And that..., was the most painful thing that has ever happened to me.
I went back and patiently waited for him to message me, maybe I was expecting him to give me an explanation as to why he walked away. Is it because he felt like I have betrayed his trust, because he has treated me as a close fren all along and didn't expect me to harbor any other kinda feelings towards him? But could I help myself? I din want to fall for him either, I know he has his heart with someone else. But anyway, I did...
Then I went for another outing and he was there as well. I had felt like I could not go anymore since I won't have the courage to face him, but I had promised one of my other friends that I would go. So I went and the whole trip was quite disastrous. I tried to find a place where I can talk to him and maybe even apologize. I don't know why I feel like I need to say that I am sorry but that's the way he made me feel with his reaction yesterday.
The whole trip he was checking out pretty girls and he even flirted with one of them. He ignored me pretty much for the rest of the trip. I tried to smile at him and talk to him but he only gave me uninterested, one-word answer. Lost were the days when we could chat about anything under the sun and still be able to laugh...
Sumhow, now I really miss those days. I wish I can turn back time and never had the confession yesterday. I wish that I can still be his close friend. I miss seeing him smile at me and I miss hearing his laughter.
I never know falling for someone can make me feel so painful. But do I even have a choice in this?
i.c.y -
U can oni choose 2 aplogise....even though i didn't dink u haf 2.....
He has 2 choose wether 2 accept it.... -
What did you tell him exactly?
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so u tink i really do owe him an apology? is it wrong of me to like a close fren?Originally posted by pipi & poot-poot:U can oni choose 2 aplogise....even though i didn't dink u haf 2.....
He has 2 choose wether 2 accept it....
i.c.y -
if only tat guy were croco, icyprincess will never be sad
*pat pat darling icyprincess*
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well, remember the stalker? one of our frens suggested dat we (me and him) shud be going out together so dat once the stalker knows dat i m attached, he wud not bug me anymore..Originally posted by SnowFlag:What did you tell him exactly?
so i said in front of him that that is a good idea...
i.c.y -
thank you croco...Originally posted by sgboy2004:if only tat guy were croco, icyprincess will never be sad
*pat pat darling icyprincess*
too bad he were not u...
he has made me cry a lot...he never even considered wat i have done for him all this time...
i.c.y -
And then he ignore u and walked away? I think he really make it pretty clear liao lor.Originally posted by icyprincess:well, remember the stalker? one of our frens suggested dat we (me and him) shud be going out together so dat once the stalker knows dat i m attached, he wud not bug me anymore..
so i said in front of him that that is a good idea...
i.c.y
I am the loudspeaker who kept telling you to confess.
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i dunno y i chose to confess oso yesterday...Originally posted by SnowFlag:And then he ignore u and walked away? I think he really make it pretty clear liao lor.
I am the loudspeaker who kept telling you to confess.
now i m feeling really lost, really regretful...
i.c.y -
Words are d hardest 2 take back......
Feelins 2....
So guess u can oni wait 4 him 2 either luv u back or 2 turn u away outright.... -
I guess, in a way he has already turned away from me...Originally posted by pipi & poot-poot:Words are d hardest 2 take back......
Feelins 2....
So guess u can oni wait 4 him 2 either luv u back or 2 turn u away outright....
I am feeling like I am unworthy of love currently because I am too ugly and stupid, I have nothing that he wants in a girl..
i.c.y -
Read my siggy.Originally posted by icyprincess:I am feeling like I am unworthy of love currently because I am too ugly and stupid, I have nothing that he wants in a girl..
i.c.y
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Wallowin in self pity won't get u anydin u wan.....Originally posted by icyprincess:I guess, in a way he has already turned away from me...
I am feeling like I am unworthy of love currently because I am too ugly and stupid, I have nothing that he wants in a girl..
i.c.y
It oni sets u back by miles.....
No use cryin over spilt milk now.....
No one was supposed 2 walk wif clouds between their knees anyway.....so ur drims haf jus been grounded temporarily.....
U rest now 2 soar another day -
thank you...Originally posted by pipi & poot-poot:Wallowin in self pity won't get u anydin u wan.....
It oni sets u back by miles.....
No use cryin over spilt milk now.....
No one was supposed 2 walk wif clouds between their knees anyway.....so ur drims haf jus been grounded temporarily.....
U rest now 2 soar another day
but i am now having broken wings..i do not know when dat will heal...
i.c.y -
Me share ur exact same feelings... more or less the jizz is there juz dat gender roles r reversed..
Gotta let go.. tuff but "chang tong bu ru duan dong" rite...
[You Hong Ming - ai wo de ren he wo ai de ren]
Join me here, or make 1 something like it.. remind urself..
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Isn't it good to you that he makes it clear to you and you can move on?Originally posted by SnowFlag:Read my siggy.
At least you dun hv to worry whether to tell him or not.
Sometimes we gain by losing -
Much time is wasted in life lamenting over jus 2 days....Originally posted by icyprincess:thank you...
but i am now having broken wings..i do not know when dat will heal...
i.c.y
Yesterday & tomorrow....
Yesterday is past & gone.....nothin can bring it back....
Tomorrow has yet 2 happen.....no use worrying over d future....
Place ur sight on 2day......for 2day is a direct result from yesterday.....& today is oso a direct consequence of ur tomorrow..... -
u got dat song by you hou ming? send me leh..Originally posted by larry_longwei:Me share ur exact same feelings... more or less the jizz is there juz dat gender roles r reversed..
Gotta let go.. tuff but "chang tong bu ru duan dong" rite...
[You Hong Ming - ai wo de ren he wo ai de ren]
Join me here, or make 1 something like it.. remind urself..
http://www.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=92322
i need depressing songs...anyone got any??
i.c.y -
In a way dat is good la...but still cant he tell me in a more subtle way..and my other frens are there some more...Originally posted by SnowFlag:Isn't it good to you that he makes it clear to you and you can move on?
At least you dun hv to worry whether to tell him or not.
Sometimes we gain by losing
really feel like crying but cant even cry...
i.c.y -
Originally posted by icyprincess:I guess, in a way he has already turned away from me...
I am feeling like I am unworthy of love currently because I am too ugly and stupid, I have nothing that he wants in a girl..
i.c.y
Never allow someone to bring your self-esteem down, especially when its because of a rejection. When you like someone, rejection chances will be there and at least when he is not interested in you, he didn't accept & played you emotionally.
Love is free will. We respect each other's choice.Originally posted by icyprincess:so u tink i really do owe him an apology? is it wrong of me to like a close fren? To love is of no fault. There is no need for apologies in matters of love.
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u need positive songs insteadOriginally posted by icyprincess:u got dat song by you hou ming? send me leh..
i need depressing songs...anyone got any??
i.c.y -
i need songs dat i can relate to...Originally posted by SnowFlag:u need positive songs instead
i.c.y -
the depressing songs will make u even more sadOriginally posted by icyprincess:i need songs dat i can relate to...
i.c.y
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Such is our life experience.
Time will heal the wounds.
In the end, you may even thank for the experience as it makes you braver, more positive and happier.
Time..... -
Hoi...wake up lah....he's such a wuss, dun even know the basic courtesy of letting someone down gently, why bother yourself? Isn't it better that you see him for the wuss he is now? Can anybody think of a more ungentlemanly thing to do? Just walk away and ignore you? wuss....
u also snap out of it lah, this kinda guy go to orchard road throw a 20 cents also will hit someone better, u still moping over him, still "wanna be friends"......